Thursday, February 28, 2008
I don't feel good, yes, i'm SAD, probably with abit of anger, but i'm not crying at all. Is it really better that way? Or should i cry it out? I'm not trying to suppress any feelings or tears, it's just that they aren't coming out this few nights. It's a good sign, yes, i thanked God for it too, because probably i'm getting numb to all these hurts, but somehow, i know that i'm still hurting, i'm still getting affected.
But, as promised, i'll forget him in 2 months, starting from 14o2o8. He's starting to become a jerk. (sorry if i had to use this word) But, he's acting like i had never existed, there wasn't even a gloria in his life. I seriously wonder how could forgot those feelings, emotions, memories, times we spent together etc. 15months wasn't a long period of time, but it wasn't that short either. The memories are enough to kill me, but why not him? It makes me feel so so so dumb. Like i've wasted 1year+ of my life on something useless!
In the first place, coming back to think of it all, do i know you? Because apparently, you're behaving in a manner nothing like the guy i once had. Or have you changed that badly?
