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gloriia

Wednesday, May 16, 2007


i was glad i didn't post my supposed-to-be post before i left school yesterday. cause there were some amendments to my schedule this week.

i seriously don’t like this week! when javier juju finally only need to work 1 in the 5 weekdays (wed), i have so many other things on! this is the first time it's happening since the day he started working there! when he's working 3 to 4 days out of 5, i have nothing on! eeeks! feel super sad can. hais )):

monday - we had dinner at northpoint KFC before proceeding to his house to do rj and got a nap before cabbing home at like about 1?
tuesday - supposed to be having dinner with porpor, gonggong, daddy, mummy and meimei at botanical gardens. CANCELLED! so i had a chance to be with my juju. ((: we went kbox with yumin, bryan, shirui and min yi! yumin and bryan left at about 11 while shirui, minyi, javier and i stayed on till about 1.50! <3
wednesday - supposed to be schooling, but i didn't. had the intention of not going school since monday. finally succeeded. and managed to get a little bit more rest. will be going to give the dentist a visit for my aching wisdom tooth! HURTS! PAIN!
thursday - ah gong's death anniversary. going to pei's house for family gathering. )): which meant i can't see him again.
friday - both of us would be having UT after school. perhaps a short dinner and then home. hmm!

luckily my dinner plans on tues was cancelled and i got 1 more day with him. otherwise, it's practically like when he's working on tues, wed and thurs, on the other weeks. leaving us with only mon and fri.

during school, we seldom talk and meet. [maybe we meet a little bit more now because i'll go over to your class at times before third meeting.] actually the whole 7 months plus, i guessed we talked the least as compared with the other couples. i'm not trying to blame you or to mean something bad. i never had the intention too as well. we have our own way of doing things and why are things in this way. and it's simply amazing how we came this far. i'm contented by just having your love. therefore, after school's the only time i look forward to because that's when i have you with me. ((:


my eyes are super disgusting. the eye bags are humongous-ly BIG! they're looking so bad, tired, cried-ed etc. actually i was the one who got my eyes like that. i haven't had a day of not-crying since last last sat when problems started to surface between us. luckily some were solved, but some weren't, and i can't do anything about it. along the way, other problems came too. although i still cried because of him, but there's now another different group of people making me sad, no longer him alone.


with regards to him, i really don't know what i can do. it really hurt alot. it's seriously a real big stab right into my heart. i don't know why it cut so deeply, maybe its because i loved too deeply. as usual, i was selfish, and got myself all these pains.

i know you see no point in explanations and reasonings, but if i tell you that if you explain and reason to me, with nothing but the truths, it would benefit us both, would you? [please give me an answer to it, even if it's a NO. so that i would never anticipate for your explanations or reasonings to make me feel better.]
gloriia ((:

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