Thursday, August 24, 2006
im super SAD now. cried ever since i talked to shirui about school and now, when i finish watching the video she made for us. i swear i never felt this way with 4C`o5. tears just flow down like nobody's business.
i believe on the 21o9o6, i'll cry much much worst than now. imagine going to RP but not heading to W34C. imagine. just imagine. how fun can school be then.
i did regret not going school today. because you don't even seem to appreciate what we did for you. you didn't even seem to be happy when we celebrated for you. everything seems redundant. maybe my presence was already wrong. BUT, if i were to go today, i think i'll just cry in school, once padma rao's lesson end! i would feel more sad to leave the class.
i miss everyone in W34C. even cunlai and shujun. everyone makes up W34C. without any, there will always be a hole.
i think i'll just stay anti-social in my new class and thus having more time to spend with W34C`o6 first semester. provided that there's people who's like that too. or maybe, only i would be.
i know i have to adapt to changes, but why so fast. can't it go slow. it's 3 times in 10 months.
first was 4C`o5 [nov], followed by leaving BLC to lcor [dec] and now, W34C [aug] heartache!!
i'm really going to breakdown if this continues.
i don't want. i don't want. i don't want!!
call me dumb or what, but i rather remain in the past now.
