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gloriia

Tuesday, July 05, 2005


damn sad now..i also duno why..when i got to see my cousin in that state..i suddenly felt damn damn sad and bad..haiz..she was crying and crying and crying in the sick bay..i really duno what to do when i saw her like that..haiz..*useless*..i tried to talk and calm her down..but i failed..haiz..i really didnt know how to help her..she looks so chui luo..weak..like a real small girl..felt like hugging her once i saw her..but i didnt..mayb if i did..it would be better..haiz..a ger that has always been laughing is crying rite in front of me..and not only that..she cried for at least 1 hr alreadi..and i..being her only relative..or cousin in school..only knew bout it after school has ended..haiz..but actually daniel seow did tell me that he saw my cousin crying and then her teacher brought to the general office..but i tot he was joking only so i only just sms-ed her..but she did not reply and i didnt care..haiz..continued to play with jun jie..kelly and cecilia..haiz..why didnt i care..argh!!!she's suffering so much so much so much pain in there..and i..still playing in class..haiz..should have left the class and find her..haiz..im reali veri sorry evan..i failed being your cousin..haiz..how i wish i can turn back time to help you get out of your pain..haiz..

after school..rushed down to the office once i heard banana coming to tell me that my cousin's fren came to find her to tell me to go and find evan in the general office..but it was really abit late already..she's suffering!!i dont tink any of you will understand this..cause ive been with her for 13 years..and i know some other things..so haiz..im super scared when i saw her crying..tot her prob came again..haiz..cant sae wads it..ya..everyone who was there was also quite shocked too..cause she kept saying that she wanna go home..but the next minute..she sae she dont wanna go home..haiz..dont know what is going on in her too..im super scared la..haiz..reali duno how to react..until i almost felt like crying when i saw how weak she became..haiz..in da end..called my uncle..and he rushed down also..in da car..she slept immediately..but den woke up afew times and keep saying that its veri painful..haiz....

im really a failure..a failure..a failure..i didnt do anything to help her..ive no face to face her anymore..haiz..sucks..

ive got no mood to do anything anymore..still got tuition later..sianz!!lifeless!!

you make me love you more and more everyday
gloriia ((:

3:45 PM